Tuesday, March 13, 2012

The Role of a Mother....

There are times when I wonder if I am doing all of this right. You know, being a mother and a wife. Some days I have to ask myself (and complain a little)..."Is this what I signed up for?" The cleaning, clothes washing, cooking, more cleaning, bath time, more clothes washing...
Yes it can be exhausting after working all day and giving 100% to the students I teach. There are days that I feel drained and just want to come home, get on the couch and not move.
But then I am reminded, with a sweet hug and kiss from a precious little boy, this is what I signed up for! I do all of those routine, boring, never-ending things because that is what God called me to do as a mother and a wife. I have been reading Proverbs 31 to help remind me of my role and what is honoring to God. I have to recite this sometimes because life can be hard and being a mother and wife can be hard!
Proverbs 31:10-31 [b]A wife of noble character who can find? She is worth far more than rubies. 11 Her husband has full confidence in her and lacks nothing of value. 12 She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. 13 She selects wool and flax and works with eager hands. 14 She is like the merchant ships, bringing her food from afar. 15 She gets up while it is still night; she provides food for her family and portions for her female servants. 16 She considers a field and buys it; out of her earnings she plants a vineyard. 17 She sets about her work vigorously; her arms are strong for her tasks. 18 She sees that her trading is profitable, and her lamp does not go out at night. 19 In her hand she holds the distaff and grasps the spindle with her fingers. 20 She opens her arms to the poor and extends her hands to the needy. 21 When it snows, she has no fear for her household; for all of them are clothed in scarlet. 22 She makes coverings for her bed; she is clothed in fine linen and purple. 23 Her husband is respected at the city gate, where he takes his seat among the elders of the land. 24 She makes linen garments and sells them, and supplies the merchants with sashes. 25 She is clothed with strength and dignity; she can laugh at the days to come. 26 She speaks with wisdom, and faithful instruction is on her tongue. 27 She watches over the affairs of her household and does not eat the bread of idleness. 28 Her children arise and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praises her: 29 “Many women do noble things, but you surpass them all.” 30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. 31 Honor her for all that her hands have done, and let her works bring her praise at the city gate
So what I have to remind myself is this...It is an honor to do all of those things that I don't love to do some days. The Lord has blessed me with a husband and a son; He is allowing me to take care of them for a short time. This life with them will not last forever and I pray that I do everything for them (even if it is washing poop out of shorts) with a grateful heart. The Lord has put me in this position for a purpose and I pray that I will glorify Him with it. I pray that one day the Lord will say that I have fulfilled my purpose and lived out Proverbs 31.
My prayer for you - if you are a wife or mother or both - That you would read it daily and remind yourself that what you do for your family glorifies Him! I pray that you would find encouragement in these verses and live them out daily! If you are not a wife or mother yet - pray these verses anyways. Pray that when you do marry and have children, that you will be ready to live out Proverbs 31.
Thanks for letting me share my heart for a moment!
I will leave you with a recent picture of my two boys ! I am thankful that the Lord allows me to serve them!
We went to feed the fish this evening at our family pond! We love living in the country!
Blessings,
Meagan

Monday, March 12, 2012

Tough Times...

Ok...so it has been a while since I have blogged. I had wanted (really wanted) to blog weekly about weight loss and all the fun things going on in the Roberts house! Well, as the Lord does sometimes, plans changed when Brock-Allen's health went down hill.
Let me start from the beginning...it started in August 2011. Our sweet boy would run a random fever here and there with no visible symptoms. We would take him to the pediatrician who would just say it was a virus. But my 'mommy' instinct knew something was wrong. Well after our first pediatrician basically told me that I was over-reacting and that Brock-Allen was fine, we found a new pediatrician. I knew this wasn't normal. By this time, the fevers were pretty consistent, running 1-2 fevers per month. He would also catch everything he came in contact with...the flu, colds, croup, pneumonia...everything...back to back. He never even had a chance to recover from the first illness before a new one would start.
Well our new pediatrician (whom we love!) agreed that this was not normal also. She immediately referred us to Infectious Disease at Emory Children's Hospital in Atlanta. Our doctor at Infectious Disease (who we also love) started running lots of test to rule out or find out what was causing all of this. Test after test came back negative, which was a blessing, but frustrating at the same time. Our boy was still sick and still running fever! After multiple trips to Atlanta, lots of blood work, and being hospitalized for seriously high fevers...our doctors began to nail down what was going on.
Brock-Allen has been diagnosed with -Periodic fever, Aphthous-stomatitis, Pharyngitis, Adenitis (PFAPA) Syndrome-yes a very long diagnosis. He has been put on some experimental medicines as well as steroids when he runs a fever (he runs a fever 1-2 times per month). The promising thing and hope is that there is a chance he can outgrow this, typically by the time he hits puberty. So yes, we have a while to go, but at least we can manage it with medication (we hope). We are so thankful that it was not something more serious and that we have wonderful doctors that are available to us 24/7! We are thankful also for a diagnosis! It has been emotionally and physically draining for Brock-Allen, myself, and Wes.
He is still not 100% better, and probably won't be until he completely outgrows this but we know that the Lord will not give us more than we can handle. We have learned so much through this. We have learned the importance of prayer and just being honest and real with God. Of course we have been worried, scared, anxious...you name it. We have cried lots of tears during this time, but we know that the Lord is walking beside us through this all! I am going to try and stay updated this time with how he is doing. Forgive me if I ramble and share lots of crazy medical information about PFAPA. Please continue to pray for our precious boy. Pray specifically that he will outgrow this disease and that the fevers will not get to terribly high.
Thank you so much! I am going to attach some information about this disease if you would be interested in reading about it more.

(Information from Cleveland Clinic - www.clevelandclinic.org)
Periodic fever, Aphthous-stomatitis, Pharyngitis, Adenitis (PFAPA) Syndrome This syndrome includes recurrent episodes of fever with aphthous-stomatitis (mouth sores), pharyngitis (sore throat with redness and sometimes a throat that has a white covering – exudate - like that seen in a throat with streptococcal infection. PFAPA affects children in early childhood, usually starting at age two to four years. Episodes usually decrease in frequency and resolve after the age of 10 years. This disease was recognized for the first time in 1987 and was called Marshall’s. How common is it?The frequency of PFAPA is not known, but the disease appears to be more common than generally appreciated. What causes PFAPA?The answer to this question is not yet known. No gene defect has yet to be found in PFAPA, although in some cases more than one family member has the disease. No infectious cause has been found in PFAPA, thus it is not a contagious disease. It is clear that the inflammatory process is activated during episodes but it is not clear why it is triggered. What are the main symptoms?The main symptoms are episodic fevers, accompanied by a sore throat, mouth ulcers, or enlarged cervical lymph nodes (glands in the neck, an important part of the immune system). The episodes of fever start abruptly and last for three to seven days. During episodes, the child looks very ill and complains about at least one of the three symptoms mentioned above. The episodes of fever recur every few weeks and often families know the exact day when an attack will start. On the day the fever starts the child will feel a little ill before the attack and the family knows an attack is about to start. Not all children have all symptoms, especially mouth sores. Some children have other symptoms like joint pain, abdominal pain, headache, vomiting or diarrhea. How is PFAPA diagnosed?There are no laboratory tests, or imaging procedures, specific for diagnosing PFAPA. The disease will be diagnosed based on the results of a physical examination and other symptoms. Inflammatory blood tests like the white blood cell count, erythrocyte sedimentation rate and the C-reactive protein are increased during attacks. Before the diagnosis is confirmed, it is important to exclude all other diseases that may present with similar symptoms (especially a streptococcal throat). The dramatic response to treatment (see below) also helps diagnose PFAPA. How is PFAPA treated?There is no specific treatment to cure PFAPA. The aim of treatment is to control symptoms during the episodes of fever, to shorten the duration of episodes, and in some children to prevent attacks from occurring. In most children, the disease will resolve by itself without treatment, usually after the age of 10 years. The fever does not usually respond well to Tylenol or nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs. A single dose of steroids (usually prednisone), given when symptoms first appear, has been shown to shorten an episode and sometimes even end the episode. However, the interval between episodes may also be shortened with this treatment, and the next episode may occur earlier than expected. In some patients using cimetidine (a medicine that is used to treat stomach ulcers) may prevents attacks from occurring. In patients with very frequent attacks, a tonsillectomy (removing the tonsils by surgery) may be considered. What is the outcome and course of PFAPA?The disease may last for several years. Over time, the intervals between the episodes will increase and usually after the age of 10 years resolve by itself. Children with PFAPA continue to grow and develop normally. Periodic fever, Aphthous-stomatitis, Pharyngitis, Adenitis (PFAPA) Syndrome This syndrome includes recurrent episodes of fever with aphthous-stomatitis (mouth sores), pharyngitis (sore throat with redness and sometimes a throat that has a white covering – exudate - like that seen in a throat with streptococcal infection. PFAPA affects children in early childhood, usually starting at age two to four years. Episodes usually decrease in frequency and resolve after the age of 10 years. This disease was recognized for the first time in 1987 and was called Marshall’s. How common is it?The frequency of PFAPA is not known, but the disease appears to be more common than generally appreciated. What causes PFAPA?The answer to this question is not yet known. No gene defect has yet to be found in PFAPA, although in some cases more than one family member has the disease. No infectious cause has been found in PFAPA, thus it is not a contagious disease. It is clear that the inflammatory process is activated during episodes but it is not clear why it is triggered. What are the main symptoms?The main symptoms are episodic fevers, accompanied by a sore throat, mouth ulcers, or enlarged cervical lymph nodes (glands in the neck, an important part of the immune system). The episodes of fever start abruptly and last for three to seven days. During episodes, the child looks very ill and complains about at least one of the three symptoms mentioned above. The episodes of fever recur every few weeks and often families know the exact day when an attack will start. On the day the fever starts the child will feel a little ill before the attack and the family knows an attack is about to start. Not all children have all symptoms, especially mouth sores. Some children have other symptoms like joint pain, abdominal pain, headache, vomiting or diarrhea. How is PFAPA diagnosed?There are no laboratory tests, or imaging procedures, specific for diagnosing PFAPA. The disease will be diagnosed based on the results of a physical examination and other symptoms. Inflammatory blood tests like the white blood cell count, erythrocyte sedimentation rate and the C-reactive protein are increased during attacks. Before the diagnosis is confirmed, it is important to exclude all other diseases that may present with similar symptoms (especially a streptococcal throat). The dramatic response to treatment (see below) also helps diagnose PFAPA. How is PFAPA treated?There is no specific treatment to cure PFAPA. The aim of treatment is to control symptoms during the episodes of fever, to shorten the duration of episodes, and in some children to prevent attacks from occurring. In most children, the disease will resolve by itself without treatment, usually after the age of 10 years. The fever does not usually respond well to Tylenol or nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drugs. A single dose of steroids (usually prednisone), given when symptoms first appear, has been shown to shorten an episode and sometimes even end the episode. However, the interval between episodes may also be shortened with this treatment, and the next episode may occur earlier than expected. In some patients using cimetidine (a medicine that is used to treat stomach ulcers) may prevents attacks from occurring. In patients with very frequent attacks, a tonsillectomy (removing the tonsils by surgery) may be considered. What is the outcome and course of PFAPA?The disease may last for several years. Over time, the intervals between the episodes will increase and usually after the age of 10 years resolve by itself. Children with PFAPA continue to grow and develop normally.


And just so you know...I have lost 0 pounds...yes 0! With everything going, losing weight has been at the bottom of my list. Oh well, I still have an online subscription to Weight Watchers and hope to get started again soon. Brock-Allen and his health is much more important right now :)

Blessings,
Meagan